Happy end-of-October readers! No, really though, I am actually completely ready for a new month. October was full of patience testing, unknowns, unanswered questions and a whole new level of occupied time that I did not know was possible. To sum it all up, my mom was hospitalized twice due to a rare side effect from an antibiotic. She is home, yet we are continuing to wait on what treatment she needs to return to her normal health. Please keep her in your prayers as we hope to find the right doctor with the right answer soon. Thank you in advance!

Without having to say, this has really affected our entire family. It's scary when your loved one is obviously very sick with many diagnostic tests to prove so; yet, weeks and weeks later there is still no intervention being done because quite frankly, the doctors are unsure of the steps to take for recovery. Hence the testing of patience. My mom's current situation brought some important thoughts to mind that I want to share with you, as I am sure you can relate. 

the unpredictability of life

As much as we would love to be in control of everything that comes our way + control what comes our way, we cannot possibly handle it alone. At least I know I personally cannot. I am so thankful for family and friends with their kind words and their thoughts and prayers to overcome the hard times. I am also eternally grateful to serve a loving God that provides the peace and comfort needed when life just does not make sense. This month has been a great reminder that our plans are ultimately unpredictable and are never truly set in stone. Sure, I can make my to do list as long or as short as I want to or schedule a full day at work followed by an evening group bible study or attempt to write meaningful October blog posts. The fact is: God had other plans this month. 

[Proverbs 16:9 The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.]

ultimate use of time

Often I find myself saying how busy I am and how my previously mentioned never ending to do list continues to grow. The to do list can wait. Sometimes, it is much more important to welcome and live out the moment as is, without concerning yourself with the worry of not checking off every item on the list. Many of my "plans" had to be postponed this month. My days were the same amount of busy as usual, but it was not burdened by items to check off and then feel discouraged if they were not completed. I will continue writing out my to do's; however, I am now in the pursuit of utilizing free time in productive, quality ways and not feeling inadequate if I did not accomplish everything for that day or week.

[Psalm 90:12 So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom.]
embracing the unconventional

Merriam-Webster defines: unconventional: very different from the things that are used or accepted by most people, not traditional or usual, being out of the ordinary. 

This is a subject I would LOVE to write an entire separate post on, I am quite passionate about pursuing the unconventional. A small example/disclosure/confession...I have been listening to Christmas music since September! Talk about unconventional. Concerning my mom's side effect with this medicine, it is rare. Unusual. Yet, the possibility of it happening is true. And we hope and pray, beatable. What is the one thing in your life that you dream of, that one job you strongly desire, the kind of life you marvel at the thought of living? Sure, maybe it is rare, perhaps unconventional and may seem strange to others. That does not mean it is not worth pursuing or fighting for. Mom is now fighting for her unconventional side effect to alleviate and normal health to take its place. 

[Colossians 1:9-11 For this reason also, since the day we heard of it, we have not ceased to pray for you and to ask that you may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, so that you will walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, to please Him in all respects, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God; strengthened with all power, according to His glorious might, for the attaining of all steadfastness and patience; joyously.]


  1. I looooovvvee this! About to share this post with my whole company! You are special and may the God of all bless you and keep you! It is hard to talk about faith and you did it so beautifully! So glad we are not alone!

    1. You are so sweet, thank you for the kind words! And of course, share away. I hope your company is encouraged by the fact that we are not alone in this crazy life. :)